Exhibitionistic
Wow... the blogosphere, huh? This feels a little exhibitionistic. Just how much is too much information on these things?
So, I was originally going to keep a private journal about The Stuff Herein but then this happened with my cousin L...
L: hey do u keep a blog somewhere?
Me: No, but I'm kinda tempted to start one.
L: why not? :)
L: it'll be fun
Well, alrighty, if you say so. :P
My name is Amanda. Well, legally, it's not at the moment, but if all things go to plan, that'll be sorted out later. See, I identify as male-to-female (MtF) transsexual, living and working in Australia and about to begin what I'm told is going to be the hardest phase of my life - that being gender transition. And being such a big deal, it just felt like something I'd regret not writing down, hence this blog.
If you somehow stumbled across this, and that all seems freaky or scary or you don't know or aren't sure what it means, I'd suggest giving the following links a try.
But it has been impressed upon me that crossing the gender divide is terribly difficult, that friends turn away and jobs are lost and relationships are broken. So far I'm blessed with the smoothest progress I could ever have hoped for. Granted, I haven't started presenting myself as Amanda to the world yet, but I have the support of my loving family and friends, and even the relevant people at work. I'm not angsty, no longer suicidal, physically well and for the first time in many years, very optimistic at my chances of being able to live a full life.
I count myself terribly lucky. For all those in similar situations but struggling with families and loved ones, my heart goes out to you.
So, I guess this is a sorta dumping ground for my thoughts and experiences in the coming times. It's all very personal, yes, but there's a part of me that highly suspects the Amanda I'm coming to terms with is something of an exhibitionist, to the horror of my depressed, introverted boy self. ;)
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